i'm choppy in speech and thought again. RED FLAG-- i dont want to turn my heels again... not like before.. but i know it is and only worse. my inner vacuum ... i disappear... subconsciencely existant... GOODNESS GRACIOUS... CRAPOY.

ekg:
pulse 1
pulse 2...
mass uproar.

cpr 1...
2...
3...

no use.
line dead.

echoed slience that
chill the blood
like plastic emboss...

help me
see me
hear me

but no one dares.

see me
hear me...

and so i'm beginning to see my pattern of randomness.. and yet in my insanity, i see sense therefore i'm still somewhat okay... from now on.. i'm going to post my away msg because they're always what keeps me thinking... an obscured truth or problem i've been avoiding. today's:

chafe by imperfection.. and yet i stand... but limp.. very limp.

balance?

no.

gaaahhh.................
leave a msg and i'll IM back.. maybe, if u're worth it :]?