October.

october makes me want to absorb all the sorrows of myself and of family and friends.. take all the burden and all the unhappiness... caress it, put it on a platter, feel the sorrowness to their extremities... the wounds and scars... cry it all out.. and smile upon it weakly afterward.

its kinda like ripping your heart out just to see it beat to the rhythm of life and die a little in the moment of enlightment,
yah?

refreshing.
morbidly refreshing.

ya dig?