I need to believe in me again.
I need you to believe I can, too.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Saturday, July 14, 2007
random unedited musings
Summer is here and I decided to drop all three of my summer courses I signed up for after one week of attendance.
Why?
Why stress out now when I have the entire next year to stress and figure out what I want in life?
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There's this internship opportunity in Paris, France next summer I really want to apply for, but it's obvious my successes of achieving that position is less than 0.99%. :P No harm in trying is there?
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I've known me long enough to know that I dispise being pushed to do things I dont want to do. And I hate the feeling of not being good enough. Where have all my confidence gone? Why am I so consumed in wanting the approval of others that I cannot see truth in it myself? Ugh. I used to take charge. Russell was right. I am a velvet hammer.
well look out people because the velvet is coming off, and you will certainly hear a fucking bang coming your way if you insist on crossing me. no more playing nice.
Why?
Why stress out now when I have the entire next year to stress and figure out what I want in life?
_________________________
There's this internship opportunity in Paris, France next summer I really want to apply for, but it's obvious my successes of achieving that position is less than 0.99%. :P No harm in trying is there?
__________________________
I've known me long enough to know that I dispise being pushed to do things I dont want to do. And I hate the feeling of not being good enough. Where have all my confidence gone? Why am I so consumed in wanting the approval of others that I cannot see truth in it myself? Ugh. I used to take charge. Russell was right. I am a velvet hammer.
well look out people because the velvet is coming off, and you will certainly hear a fucking bang coming your way if you insist on crossing me. no more playing nice.
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