Back in the old garage

After a long crappy day... I turned up the music as I sang along. I found myself a sketchbook and micron 5pt pen in hand... and tonight, I feel refined... revived... and alive. I absolutely love the sudden joy it brings me, I'm suddenly so at home, feeling so natural with a heart so lite... something i haven't been in a very very long time. I am determined to live freely, to love freely, and to laugh happily as I continue to be me in this very nature... :) Carefree. Unbound. Limitless.

Love <3 !

jaguar

http://news.yahoo.com/nphotos/Most-Emailed-Photos/ss/1756/im:/080505/481/906dd00a63874f79a9793398e07ffb44

i want one.

Alter-ego

Change! Change!

I need a change in my life.

Spring and summer is in the air, and I'm rediscovering my independence. I want to be passionate about life again. To say I have been stuck in a rut and living a dreamy stupor for the past couple of months is only half correct. I have been dreamy, ideal, perhaps even surreal... but I have also enjoyed it. It is in my nature to transform and morph periodically. Sometimes I feel as though the only constant in my life is change...

I crave the untamed, outlandish nature of my alter-ego, so please excuse me if I seem a little off, a little distant, and perhaps a little malicious. It's gnawing my sinews and itching to rip my skin apart for the feathered wisp of fresh air. Dare I suppress it? Ah, but should I, it would boil under my skin, wane and wax in and out of my daily conduct until I can no longer keep it in reign. In the past, close friends have kept me in check enough so that when this alter-ego makes its debut, it does not consume me whole. I am grateful and in debt to their brutal honesty and tolerance. However, I am afraid no one in close proximity can truly dance to the rhythm of my nature this time around; so if I lose all ground, excuse me and remind me I am of another person of a different time. I can only hope someone, anyone, can understand and keep up pace with me.

TIME OUT!

i'm going to go insane.

i'm getting lectured on relationships left and right, some not knowing of what my relationship truly entails.

bottom line, i don't know what i'm doing, but i think i'm a pretty damn good judge of character, enough so that i know who to befriend and who not to. i might give most ppl the benefit of doubt but i am not that gullable. the end.
____________-

i miss reading leisurely
i miss being able to write well and coherently
i miss fencing
i miss being active
i miss laughing to the point where my stomach hurts

i miss my friends

happy spring and cant wait for summer again :)


currently feeling nostalgic