i have not written in over a year and am feeling incredibly rusty. there will be an awakening soon... i feel it. And as I read the posts of the soon-to-be yesteryear, my first reaction was disgust. i am disgusted by the emotional torment/energy i wasted on writing those posts; it's always 20/20 in hindsight... perhaps i'll elaborate more upon that matter another time. adieu for now. there are so many things running through my mind right now and by god will it come out of me soon.... and i can't wait. it won't be pretty, i guarantee it. but i can't wait nonetheless. raw. uncensored. my mind and soul needs serious cleansing. fact.
p.s. i miss people.
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Thursday, October 13, 2011
struggles and triumph
this goes down as one of my top three struggles i've had in life thus far.. and i'm not sure if anything in the future can ever top it. i am so incredibly, unfathomably exhausted-- mentally, physically, emotionally... i have been disheartened to the point of helplessness and brink of giving up on multiple occasions within the last six months. but i am so glad i did not give up. alas, victory is mine!!! :) :) :) :) i can't stop smiling. but yet, there is still much work to be done. sigh. :) the heart is more than half the battle. happy thursday, everyone!
I have felt defeated and disheartened on so many accounts as of late... and i am SO incredibly, unfathomably exhausted-- mentally, physically, emotionally... but alas, triumph is mine :) i can't stop smiling. but no full celebration yet, there is still much work to be done. sigh. :) all i can say is that the heart is more than half the battle. onward we march! happy thursday, everyone!
Some of you have asked me why I've been so detached and distant from the world around me as of late, and I apologize for not being able to explain myself; I sincerely thank you for voicing your concerns and lending your ears and loving heart-- I am grateful to have such wonderful friends; I truly am forever in your debt for you guys have always been nothing but altruistic in the establishment we have made as friends.
I have felt defeated and disheartened on so many accounts as of late... and i am SO incredibly, unfathomably exhausted-- mentally, physically, emotionally... but alas, triumph is mine :) i can't stop smiling. but no full celebration yet, there is still much work to be done. sigh. :) all i can say is that the heart is more than half the battle. onward we march! happy thursday, everyone!
Some of you have asked me why I've been so detached and distant from the world around me as of late, and I apologize for not being able to explain myself; I sincerely thank you for voicing your concerns and lending your ears and loving heart-- I am grateful to have such wonderful friends; I truly am forever in your debt for you guys have always been nothing but altruistic in the establishment we have made as friends.
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