LAST DAY OF FINALS! Physics in FIVE HOURS! the countdown begins. yes i should be studying but my mentality = "eh, i'll just wing it." *shurgs*
:) "Studying" with Amanda Cianchetta yesterday was interesting to say the least. I can't wait til next quarter. We're having a pact and we're keeping it. :D New goals and perspectives on life and future... i suppose that is what one truly amazing person can do to you without having to say or do much. Thanx Cianchetta.. you're inspirational!
la la la la la.
i miss my little monsters.
i can't wait until the clock strikes 12:30PM
:) I LOVE YOU!
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
venting
1. finals didn't go so smoothly = disappointment and regrets but i can't blame anyone but myself
2. ppl need to stop snooping around my shit, esp. if it's personal shit. take the goddamn hands and nose and aura out of my fucking room.
3. sorry for swearing.
4. i miss my family. esp. my little monsters.
5. i miss my friends. social life = dull as of late. which is alright. i dont mind it but i miss it.
6. need to write letters to ppl
7. need to study for physics final
that's all for now.
8. ppl need to stay outta my shit.
2. ppl need to stop snooping around my shit, esp. if it's personal shit. take the goddamn hands and nose and aura out of my fucking room.
3. sorry for swearing.
4. i miss my family. esp. my little monsters.
5. i miss my friends. social life = dull as of late. which is alright. i dont mind it but i miss it.
6. need to write letters to ppl
7. need to study for physics final
that's all for now.
8. ppl need to stay outta my shit.
Bad Day
I love this song and I love the music video.
'Bad Day' - Daniel Powter
Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
(yeah...)
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
'Bad Day' - Daniel Powter
Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
(yeah...)
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Level
gah. breathe, amy. breathe. tell yourself to dismiss little men--i will not be submissive to your ignorance and your pitiful arrogance.
______________________
"If" by Rudyard Kipling
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;
If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ‘em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on!”
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And—which is more—you’ll be a Man(Woman), my son (daughter).
______________________
"If" by Rudyard Kipling
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;
If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ‘em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on!”
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And—which is more—you’ll be a Man(Woman), my son (daughter).
Sunday, March 12, 2006
bittersweet
im letting go. i think... finally. letting go...
sighhh
anyway--good korean song:
Byul - "I think I" (Full House OST)
I believed that it couldn't be, that it wasn't
There is simply no way that I could be in love with you
It is just petty jealousy,
I am just feeling lonely
I tried to deceive myself
But now I can't hide from it any longer
CHORUS
I Think I love You that's how it seems
Cause I Miss You when you're not around
I can't do anything
I keep thinking about you
If I look at how things are I know
I'm Falling For You I didn't realize it
Now I Need You all the time
Located so deep in my heart
Now I see it is you
Maybe we are not suited to each other
It would be good if we are just friends
From one to ten, we never agree on anything
How can we have a relationship?
People say we won't be able to do it
I keep saying it
But now I hate to do it any longer
I didn't realize how I felt about you,
Why couldn't I see?
It was right in front of me
That whole time you were right next to me
Why is it now that I finally see that it is love?
Translation by : Goro-chan, Warghal
sighhh
anyway--good korean song:
Byul - "I think I" (Full House OST)
I believed that it couldn't be, that it wasn't
There is simply no way that I could be in love with you
It is just petty jealousy,
I am just feeling lonely
I tried to deceive myself
But now I can't hide from it any longer
CHORUS
I Think I love You that's how it seems
Cause I Miss You when you're not around
I can't do anything
I keep thinking about you
If I look at how things are I know
I'm Falling For You I didn't realize it
Now I Need You all the time
Located so deep in my heart
Now I see it is you
Maybe we are not suited to each other
It would be good if we are just friends
From one to ten, we never agree on anything
How can we have a relationship?
People say we won't be able to do it
I keep saying it
But now I hate to do it any longer
I didn't realize how I felt about you,
Why couldn't I see?
It was right in front of me
That whole time you were right next to me
Why is it now that I finally see that it is love?
Translation by : Goro-chan, Warghal
Friday, March 10, 2006
everyone is quick to joke and judge about my character today. in physics DL, we gave each other nicknames. and i? PLAYAH Chi. hahahahahaha.. how and why the name? i wouldn't be able to tell you. they say if i was a druggie... i'd be a cocaine addict. hah!
dubbed as one who carries many alluring facial expressions of unknown intent, i am typed a mystery of character by sir eric lee and madame cianchetta.
i might as well put it in practice...
_____________________
"When one is young one should begin to philosophize, and when one is old one should not be tired of philosophizing. For it is never too early or too late to work at the health of the soul." -Epicurus
being pensive and attempting to race along with the mind. literally. :P
dubbed as one who carries many alluring facial expressions of unknown intent, i am typed a mystery of character by sir eric lee and madame cianchetta.
i might as well put it in practice...
_____________________
"When one is young one should begin to philosophize, and when one is old one should not be tired of philosophizing. For it is never too early or too late to work at the health of the soul." -Epicurus
being pensive and attempting to race along with the mind. literally. :P
Thursday, March 09, 2006
GAH
I've been sleeping a lot lately, but that doesn't mean it's quality sleep.
I can hardly keep myself asleep. It's like I'm using every ounce of energy just to force my body to rest. Why? I don't know.
Something is bothering me, yah? ((I think)) GAH.
Why am i so agitated? frustrated? plain ol' ~!@#$%^&*^%#$@ I dont even know the word for it.
blah blah blah blah blah. For one, i did worse in the berkeley tourney than i thought. DID I TELL YOU HOW I FREAKISHLY GOT JIPPED 2 POINTS IN THE DIRECT ELIMINATION ROUND BECAUSE OF MY STUPID LINE JUDGES?!?! o man... seeded 25th after the first rounds and just because of those possible 2 points, i lose against someone who was seeded 41! and my final seeding????????? 33?!? gah. no. no. i'm over it. sigh. its okay. i had fun. except for that incident. its okay. nat won novice foil. whoo hoo~! go UCD! For two, I hate ochem lab, and mind you, i usually LOVEEEE lab. gah. so much baby-ing from the T.A. who no one understands. sigh. he won't give me the points i honestly believe i deserve from the free response questions on exam 1 and 2... and i need those points! GRRRRRR.. STUPID STUPID STUPID t.a. blah blah blah blah blah....
what else?! TOO MUCH. but i haven't sort it all out yet. i dont believe i will until after finals. oooo ooo finals...
Finals are coming up next week. Start on the 17th and i dont end til the last day on the 23rd. Gotta ace all my exams to attain grades i'll be satisfied with. :P It's okay. I just have to breathe. Relax. Absorb. and NOT freak out. hah. i hope i do well.
I can hardly keep myself asleep. It's like I'm using every ounce of energy just to force my body to rest. Why? I don't know.
Something is bothering me, yah? ((I think)) GAH.
Why am i so agitated? frustrated? plain ol' ~!@#$%^&*^%#$@ I dont even know the word for it.
blah blah blah blah blah. For one, i did worse in the berkeley tourney than i thought. DID I TELL YOU HOW I FREAKISHLY GOT JIPPED 2 POINTS IN THE DIRECT ELIMINATION ROUND BECAUSE OF MY STUPID LINE JUDGES?!?! o man... seeded 25th after the first rounds and just because of those possible 2 points, i lose against someone who was seeded 41! and my final seeding????????? 33?!? gah. no. no. i'm over it. sigh. its okay. i had fun. except for that incident. its okay. nat won novice foil. whoo hoo~! go UCD! For two, I hate ochem lab, and mind you, i usually LOVEEEE lab. gah. so much baby-ing from the T.A. who no one understands. sigh. he won't give me the points i honestly believe i deserve from the free response questions on exam 1 and 2... and i need those points! GRRRRRR.. STUPID STUPID STUPID t.a. blah blah blah blah blah....
what else?! TOO MUCH. but i haven't sort it all out yet. i dont believe i will until after finals. oooo ooo finals...
Finals are coming up next week. Start on the 17th and i dont end til the last day on the 23rd. Gotta ace all my exams to attain grades i'll be satisfied with. :P It's okay. I just have to breathe. Relax. Absorb. and NOT freak out. hah. i hope i do well.
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