la la la la la

thank goodness for the sake of writing to maintain self sanity.

i just awoke from an uber sad dream. my whole body aches, my pillow case and blankets are soaked, and i feel like crap-- what a contrast to the dream i had a few days previous.

*sigh* i'm definitely feeling the pressure now.. of the tourney, gigantic shit load of school work i need to start doing, future planning, and personal issues. i want next week to come already so i can get it all over with but then again, i dont because i need more time to study. i can't wait til spring break. i can't wait to see people i haven't seen in ages, months, days... gah! i can't wait to feel comfortable again.

i want to scream on the top of my lungs, cry my tear ducts dry, and laugh until my stomach kills... and then run until i drop. haha. blahhhhhh i can't wait until break. i MUST MUST MUST visit the beach/bay. i must must must see the must see people i love oh so very much and miss oh so very much!

la la la la la... gah

shake it off. shake it off. only a few more weeks. damn it amy chi.. damn you. get yourself together. suck it in, breathe it out. the world is yours. take it in. learn it. love it. live it.